Maggie is an accomplished poet, but, amazingly, this is her first personal essay. Maggie Smith’s second book of poems, The Well Speaks of Its Own Poison (Tupelo Press, April 2015) was selected by Kimiko Hahn as the winner of the Dorset Prize. She is also the author of Lamp of the Body (Red Hen Press, 2005), winner of the Benjamin Saltman Poetry Award, and three prizewinning chapbooks, the latest of which is Disasterology (Dream Horse Press, forthcoming 2015). A 2011 National Endowment for the Arts Fellow in poetry, Maggie has also received four Individual Excellence Awards from the Ohio Arts Council and fellowships from the Sustainable Arts Foundation and the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts. She lives with her husband and two children in Bexley, Ohio, where she works as a freelance writer and editor. You can find her at her website.
“After the birth of my second child—on the heels of two miscarriages—I was exhausted, obsessive, and angry, frankly, that I’d given birth to yet another colicky non-sleeper with acid reflux. I thought that by writing everything down, I might find the pattern that would help us both sleep and heal. “Here Comes the Sun” is about my experience going through postpartum anxiety and coming out on the other side of it.
I saw the call for the Mothering Through the Darkness anthology, and though I’d never written a personal essay, I had a lot to say and felt compelled to finally say it. I’d been warned about postpartum depression, and I’d been through it before, with my daughter—the crying, the despondency, the feeling of regret. But postpartum anxiety had not been on my radar. It took me a few months to finally get help because my symptoms didn’t match up with what I had been taught to look for. I thought writing about my experience might help another mother going through something similar.”